Seconds of Death

The weather now is so hot, around 40 degree Celsius. I am in a forest, enjoying the love of mother nature. 'I love it!' I shout out loud to everything there. Suddenly I heard another voice. 'This is nice,' a sound come from behind. I confirmed it is not echo because not the same word that I shouted just now. I was so hesitate to turn back as we been told not to look back when someone call you in the forest. 'This is gorgeous!' Another interesting expression hit my ear drum. Thus I decided to turn back to have a look at I so beautiful. No matter what cost, I wish to know. I turn back, I saw fire burning toward me. It is still in a distant from me. As I was panic. 'Just relax boy,' another sound rocks my mind. A old man clapping on my shoulder, and repeated it again. 'This is nice, just chill boy.' I hold his hand and try to bring both of us out from the situation. However, he is tough, I can't move him. He walk towards a big tree near by. Put his hand in to his pocket. What he holding is a very old pack of cigarette. He took the very last cigarette out and sit back. Half laying on the tree and he looks relax. His last wish is, smoke and relax. As the fire getting stronger, he get more exciting. At this little moment, different thought run through my mind. I should relax as well. However, I want to run from here and tell my family that I love them. Everything is just too late. I tried to run but I can't leave the old man behind. Only the moment that the fire arrive, I can't bother to save the old man and I ran off. Forest fire is forest fire, they are unpredictable. They burn so fast and I was caught in the fire. I regret that I did not able to tell my family I love them and now I am leaving the world.

'Seng, Seng, Seng, are you awake?' The voice of my mom are so clear and I open my eyes. I told my mom that I love her. The dream had over and I need to say it before is too late. Slowly,I found out that I am having heavy fever and lying on the hospital bed. Not long after that, a doctor come and told us that if my fever won't drop tomorrow, I will be facing brain death. Oh, this was bad, the dream just now maybe is the indication, I told my mom that I want her to be with me all the time and I was so lucky that dad able to spend his time with me in hospital as well. I could feel how much they love me. The feeling is so real that I am so hot and can't stand it anymore. When I was suffering, the last thing I saw is doctor come by and told my mom he need to give me an injection to stop me from suffering so that I can rest in peace.

I woke up again. What a serious bad dream. I am still sweating that time. Sadly, when I woke up, I still in the hospital. I was informed that I am diagnosed with a weird disease. What? Is this another dream? I hit the doctor and he hit me hardly. I feel the pain. OH no, this is real. I quickly ask how long can I live. They have no answer. I requested to discharge from hospital as they can't help me. Then, I make sure less people know this case and act as normal. As a joker, I keep entertaining people. When I was in a pub, doing tricks to entertain people, some 'bad ass' running towards me and try to hit me with the beer bottle that he holding. I was still scare of death. I scream and wake up.

This is sad, dreams of dreams coming into me and never had a nice ending. I walk out my room, an old man standing in front of me. He is just look alike the one I meet before in my vision. Don't tell me his is another vision. 'What do you want to do if you still got 5 years life?' The spoke after we keep silence for few minutes. What? I only left 5 years? I sit down and think. What I want to do in the rest of my five years.
I want to be a successful business man.
I want to be with my family as long as I can.
I want my parents proud of me.
I want my parents to live a luxurious life with all my earning through my hard work in that five years.

Wait, how can I let my parents live a luxurious life in just 5 years of my hard work and I still want to stay with my family?

The old man spoke again. Each time he spoke is just strike the point. 'Think slowly yourself. You still got a long life, however, keep this goal in mind. One have no goals is not living.'
Pop!
I woke up at 9am and my friend called me. 'Have you prepared yet? lets go out.' Finally, I am truely awake. In both mentally and physically.

You guys. get some goals as well. Work hard together and no slack. Time and tide wait for no man and you not sure how long you will in this world. Get all the things done before is too late.....

Thanks.

I really need to say thanks to this guy. He is my new friend. I call him Min, someone call him Ben, and in his blog, he is Saru. Thanks for your drawing. I sure my friend will like it.

Luck of Lazzy Louis

It is too shiny. I was woke up by a big beam of light. I open my eyes slowly, I saw a golden house which is shining. I was curios where am I. I walk toward the house and look for clue. Before I enter the house, a old man walk out the house. He is as tall as me and I have no idea how old is he. He even got a long white beard. I asked him, "where am I?". "Come in and find out yourself." say the old man. My first thought, why not. I walk in and saw another old man. "Here you are.." the old man seems to be waiting for me.

I was lost. Where am I? I keep asking myself. I hit myself as well to confirm I am not dreaming. The second old man ask me to sit down and relax. How could I relax if I found out that I am lost?
He say, I am boosting your fortune. However, things won't go the way you want. This is why we meet here. "To have a lucky fortune, you need to follow my advise." say the old man.

Then he show me a long list of what should I do. I was surprise, how could I remember the list? No matter what, he ask me to focus on few things.

1. Be grateful for everything. With this, you will given what you need but not what you wan. With this 4 words, I try to apply it to my daily life. Thus, I got a Nokia 2600 by using rm1. You guys should know this. I am not allow to change to really advance phone. Every time I wish to change my phone I hit the wall. 2600 is what I need. So, I am happy enough with it.

2. Be positive. With this, you could achieve happiness. So, I always try to think positive and I am happy with it.

3. Conduct yourself in a calm manner and do things in an orderly fashion. This is quite hard to achieve when my emotion is not stable. I do get angry with lin yuan ching once. Sorry.

4. Make mutual concessions and acknowledge the help of others. Thanks

Four of them are inter-linking. Then they are related to the whole full list of thing that make you be lucky. After knowing all this. I was woke up by my alarm clock. All this is only dream or I call it as vision. So, I practising it and my life is lucky then. The description above it just things that I came over after the vision.

Practise it as it is a list of good virtue and they cost nothing.
Finally, wish all you guys can be lucky than me. I sure you guys know how lucky I am. Of cours not during down time.

Rain? Jay? Malay? This is a rojak post..

The first drop of shower woke me up from my date with my pillow. I turn my head to the red clock and it tell me that it is now 8.30am. Hardly I will wake up this time. The rhythm in my room this morning is different than usual. Today I woke up in the rhythm of Jay's songs. This remind me a lot of things that happen through out my dummy year of primary and secondary school. Each and every song are so meaningful to me. Each of them have a memory. Hearing them are just like reading my memory. Images and sounds will keep on playing in my mind and telling me their story that I have with them. I then have my breakfast with the accompany of Jay's same named album. These songs did not recorded any images or sounds of my memory, however, they wrote the first chapter today. Lets forget Mr Jay for awhile.

Rain, a nice weather to stay indoor. We will have few more days of shower as predicted. The weather forecast predicted that our sky only have sunlight on next Wednesday. Can't wait to recall more and more memory by looking out the window and accompany by the nice rhythm that recorded the memory. Write until here, I was like someone who lost their memories and trying to get back.

Today, I started to draft the new story of the game that I mention before. Just write for few paragraph. I need to write more before I post it here. Hope someone could help me to correct the grammar. Besides, give some comment that time and some idea as well.

Rahman called me just now, he is continuing his own new chapter as well. Is good to know that. Besides, talking to him help me realize how worst my Malay had become. My best speaking language, had become almost the worst. Just like my Japanese, whenever I think back about it, I feel regret that I forget it. I should not make the same mistake.

What should I continue write now?
Thinking.

I think I better head into my date before is too late. Else my pillow will be unhappy. Good luck guys...

I need Sylvia......

Sitting in front of her, I got no idea what should I do. She is gorgeous. She is nice. However, not everything will be perfect. My mind was blank whenever I'm with her. The reason is because of her imperfect. However, this make her looks classic. Beside, this is special.

Wondering which her I am talking about? She is my new partner. Who is after my pillow. My notebook need half retirement. So, as a young guy. I can't face the old lady that need retirement. So, this is the reason she is here, my new system. I get in with cheap price of course with some imperfection. The special is, she is running with a mouse that Xyan need to write about. It is a white mouse, with only two button and running by trace/track ball/what ever you call. My whole system is blank only this old mouse still in white. Besides, my system still haven't have her mouth. Which is a pain for both of us.

This is where Sylvia come out on my MSN personal message and as my title.. I need her a lot.... The reason behind is, I desperately need a mice, for both benefits.

I have no idea what to write today. Thus, come out with this kind of stupid post.

Actually, today I meet a year 9 boy. So, he will be around age of 15? Maybe. Age is not important. What he planing to do is making a game, which is inspiring. We go through some of the details and come out with what I can do to help. The part that I am taking is to continue the story which is what I wish to do. We will publish the story in few month. Then hope comic will be coming as well. Then, the game should enter publishing time when we done all this advertisement. This really impress me. What did you do in your age of 15? Or lets see what they are doing in Sandakan. Please wake up man, DON'T JUST STAY IN YOUR COMFORT ZONE.......

another day of unknown,

This happen yesterday night.
Thursday night is the night that we will have spaghetti bolognese.
In my mind, I was thinking of getting it yesterday for dinner.
However, when I walk out my room, I was disappointed.
We are having lamb stew, smash potato and toast bread.
My first thought was, where is my spaghetti?
Second thought was, is today Thursday?
Third thought, I assumed yesterday is Wednesday.
I continue eat my dinner until I'm full.

Not long after that, Jordan, my God Brother, come back from home.
'Oh mom! Where is my SPAGHETTI BOLOGNESE?' Jordan shout.
Then, mom told him the reason.

Finally, I told everyone about my thought, and everyone can't hold their mouth and laugh non-stop.

Today nothing special happen, what I did was cleaning my room as the weather here always rain and I can't do anything out there. Besides, my new system, she was running perfectly well.
Oh ya. techspots.net is coming soon. Please be patient.

Father's Day Recall, Recall Father's Day

First of all I need to say sorry for not updating my blog. My time was a little bit of tight last few days. Actually, I should say that, I am not good in time management. Is time to learn, need to learn when to study, when to online, when to clean up my room and all sort of things. I should not always lean on luck as luck will not always knock your door.

This few days, all I did is build up my new system, thanks to Tim for fetching me around to get all bit and piece. My system should be say running smoothly. Powered by Window 7 now, but will change to Linux.

Father's Day Recall, Recall Father's Day
This time memories is about 'Father'.
I recall this as I missed the day of Father's Day to post up something for my dada.
I can't remember this history. This is told by my parents.
Characters: Me and my parents
Location: My house
Time: At least 14 years ago.

This will be a tiring day for my dada. However, he was coming home with smile to meet his family member after out station for few days. He hoping in the house shouting 'hello' although he is carrying luggage that as heavy as 10Kg. Wait, how can dada hoping into the house like a 5 years old kid? Ops, true, he can do that as he is still young that time.

As the moment he stepped into the house, his lovely wive who is missing her husbund rush up and have a hug... I should stop here and turn my camera to me.

Lets go upstair where I was beening keep. At this age, it is really hard to stop me running around. Now, where you saw me is in a cage. cage? You will know why. I was actually staying in a bed with columm that prevent me to fall down. When the happy couple when upstair, my father walk to me and try to lift me up. Why I use try to lift it up here? The reason is he really trying too. Not because of my weigth. I was treaten at that moment. 'Stranger' I shout. I try to lean back but I am in the cage. Yeah... This is why my bed become the cage.

Craaaaack... Something broken this time. This is the sound of broken heart from my Father. I feel really sorry to him after I know this case. So, I wish to call you dada again. DADA, I will never forget you again. I promiss it will be no next time.

I was also lucky that I have grandpa when I was young. I know that some people's grandpa might pass away and go to heaven before they was born. However, it is so sad that I can't actually remember their face. All I remember is, one is fat and another one is thin. The most important thing is I know they love me. All my family members love me actually. Besides, I still remember grandpa from mother side will offer us fruit every time we meet.

Ops. Father's Day I also talk about grandpa but I didn't not talk about my grandma on Mother's Day. They are in heaven now as well. Thanks for your love. I wil always remember all your love, YeYe, PoPo, GongGong, TiuFuPoPo, DaDa, and also Mama... Love you all forever and ever....

Joker.. part 2

As a poker player, I won't forget this four jokers. They have the same roles inside the deck, entertaining the Ace to King of different kingdom. However, every time we play poker, who will remember his appearance? Joker are the most important people in side the world of deck. However, none of a single card game consist of him. When people play with the cards, Joker are the only one who left behind in the deck. Joker's world is only consist of the limited cards. How pity is that. He need to overcome loneliness in the cold dark deck cover.

The same thing apply to the real world joker. He seems to be important. However, after all of the laughter and fun time, people seems to be forget them. Here, I wish to pay respect to all joker in the world sincerely from deep of my heart. I will be the one who remember you, no matter which Joker you are.

Joker...

For me,
Joker are funny,
Joker are attracting,
Joker are interesting,

For me,
Joker are gifted,
Joker are special,
Joker are talented,

For me,
Joker also the thinker,
Who will say, I'm thinking, I'm thinking, I'm thinking,
I forgot what I wish to express now as I think for too long.

For me,
Wish to be a Joker,
Who surround by lots of people,
Especially girls of same age.
(haha)


p/s: I was too bored. Lots of material come through my mind and I have no idea which to use. Thus picked a topic joker to write about. Forgive me. Whole post is just to update about I am bored. Wakaka....

Secondary school life.

This is a long long story. 6 years in SMJK Tiong Hua give me a lot of fresh memories as I just proceeded my step to further study. I entered Tiong Hua when I was 13. A lot of stupid things happen in the little school area.

In the first year, the most important thing is Yong Mie Mie, he refused to study form one and wanted to study remove class. This is the reason we know each other. Nicholas, if not mistaken, he is the one, Yong's best friend.

The second year of the third day, if not mistaken again. Here is the time where Alvin, the lengend, as he said, introduced himself as David Backhem and argue with the Malay teacher, Cikgu Herlina. Forgive me if wrong. A lot of thing actually happen in this year.

Everything I done, Is just like a noob. I have nothing as my academic result a.k.a my luck decreased. Only in form 4 and 5, I start to regain some luck and self confidence. Then, life started to change. Started to manage school website, which we, the student try twice to get it running but we have no support from the school. Thus, mission failed.

Joining robotic is the biggest event in my secondary life. The reason I am in is because, I told teacher I sit in front of the computer most of the time. That maybe is the reason. After that, ruling the robotic 'club' for the second year is real fun. Thanks to all my team mate as well as the junior who win the first prize.

Anything that I missed? Oh ya, the girls, I didn't mention them. Today is guys day. Ops, I have another interesting one. The source of this memory is actually came from Wei Kuen sister. This special memory is, about stanley. Erm, how to say. This is a nice call from Miss Pang. Siew Fung JIE... How are you.

My Apologies

It been awhile after I wrote the last post about the post on hold. I think the post really will be on hold in my mind for a longer period of time. Yesterday, thanks for you guys hope. I score 1000/1000 for my Microsoft Exam. Then head to city meet the most respectful Mr Lam. I bought 640GB hard disk drive and a casecom case. Once I reach home, I was busy on upgrading a celeron computer to a Dual 2 core. However, basically it is a new computer now. Before I done it, Xyan need some help. However, she is not lucky enough that I don't have the luck to help her all. Sorry Xyan. This morning wake up, We put another computer together which will eventually become our home theather computer. This is a intel motherboard with Pentium 4 2.8GHz and 512 DDR Ram. Most important thing is, this will have only 2.5GB of hard disk drive. We will play everything from our external hard disk drive.

This afternoon, our house powerboard got some problem and I have no internet access. I get it now just bacause we use lots and lots of extenstion cable. That is not a problem now.

Below is just a corner of our messy room taken last night.

Post on hold.

As the title. Post on hold. Tomorrow is my Exam. In order to wake up early, I need to rest early. This make sense. I got something that I would like to write about today. I actually would lik to write more about memories that really funny. A lot of them just flush through my mind although most of the memories is about my young age. Really really young age. However, time and tide wait for no men. Is time to sleep and my girlfriend is waiting. Thus, I will post my post as fast as possible. This is also a kind of update because I did mentio that I going to take my Exam. Where memory post will only consist of my memories. Night guys. Have a nice dream.

Freedom

Human had over glorify themselves and heavily impose on humanism. What they impose the most is freedom. Actually what is true freedom? What do we know about true freedom?

In my opinion, if I apply 'imperfect perfection is the absolute perfection' to true freedom, we will get 'imperfect freedom is the absolute freedom'. What is imperfect freedom? Lets say about a ball. A ball is free to roll to every where he wants. However, this will have a problem. The ball might face dangerous situation. It might fall into river or anything that similar. Thus, this freedom open up life to danger. However, if we put the ball into a plate, the ball still can roll around the plate. He will get a boundary but still with freedom. So, 'limited freedom is absolute freedom'

For centuries, human try to get real freedom. Birds are a symbol of freedom in the sky. Fish is the symbol of freedom in the water. Thus human try to make us able to feel the freedom. Plane and submarine, are example of the freedom created by human. Airasia slogan, everyone can fly. Fly means freedom? Nope. This achievement still are bounded in my word. This is still restricted freedom. When you are flying, you are actually in the big cage. Submarine? Is just the same thing.

Thus, we should imply this into our life. restrict ourselves will lead to a better life. Good luck my friend, make your life. Restricted freedom is absolute freedom.

memories.

Today Intro

The first free day after finish first term internship. This is good enough to put into my memory vault. Wake up at the time I wish to wake up. Eat breakfast, oh ya, I started to eat breakfast everyday already. Most important thing, I successful finish watching 'chuck' season one today. It is awesome.

Young time memory..

This is another story that I remember and recall back with my mom just now.
Main character: Lazzy Louis, my memory of course I am the main character.
Character 1: My Aunt, who I call Tai Gu.
Character 2: My niece, Ling Ling. We are in different in family rank but same age.
Character 3: My MOM!!! This character will be glorify be me in this post.

Location: A supermarket.(Is a closed down store now)

This is another sunny day again. Four of us are in a store or supermarket. As a kid. I run around the place. I stopped after a bit of running and saw Ling Ling and Tai Gu are together.The scence I saw is Ling Ling begging Tai Gu to buy her something. For just a while, Tai Gu decided to buy the little thing that she beg. A little bulb light up my head. I can do that too!!!

Once again, I run towards my loving mom. I asked her to walk to a corner and pointed at a thing that I wish to have. The first plan not always work. This is why we have so much different plan for the same mission. Easy way can't make it so I got to change to plan B. Recall back what I saw, Ling LIng eye's are watery at that moment. Thus, I try to beg my mom again and cry. At this very critical moment, what a ordinary mom will do it comfort the kid and buy the thing that is requested.

My mom lifted her hand. However, things are not happening according to my wish. A big Slap hit my face. "You want to cry? I'll make you cry!" This time I really cried as loud as possible. Mom just turn around and leave me alone there. After crying for unknow time, I feel that something is wrong. My mom is gone. Ops... Ran for it. I running the place over and over with tears falling off. The store is so big that I can hardly find my mom.

OK. Story still need to be continued. I found my mom and she actually did not leave the store. Now recall back is just too good to have you mom. You done all the best for me. Make me not begging anything after that. Thanks MOM. It is too hard to understand when we are in the situation without thinking out of the box. However, the most important thing now is, I understand.

Memories.

Today Intro...

Today, is my last day for my internship. It is a happy internship. I am happy to meet the people there. All of them are nice and kind, mostly, Dylan, the awesome. I mentioned you. I will read back this blog from time to time to find out what had happen on me, so I won't forget you.
Yesterday and today are the most busy time we ever had. However, we really have fun today. I believe Dylan and another technician, Shaun are enjoy as well. Once again good to meet you all.

Young Time Memories...

It was a nice sunny day when this happened. I recall back as a sweet memories. I sure my parents remember this day. I dream of this few days ago. Now, every time I saw a little stapler I will recall this and feels funny.

I was playing with the stapler at that very special moment. I play, play, play and play. It seems to be a bored person. Yeah, Dad, Mom, and Lee Brother is chatting. Suddenly, crying noise rise like an alarm, break the silent of the living room, as well as the chatting area. The noise is from the 'young lazzy', that is me.

I actually stapler my thumb nail. So my tears breakdown just like water streaming out from a leaking damn and burst. Three policemen rush toward me and asked what happen. Ops, not policemen, they are the three people that chatting but they really looks like police that time. They slowly pull the shinny thing out and comfort me. My tears still rushing and I can't control it. It was really hurt for a kid.

Just like the skies. Sun will always come out after rain. I smile after I cry for the pain. Do you guys know what cure me? Can you guys think of which 'Paracetamol' that can be so effective? It was a treat. Just a treat can change a crying boy to a smiling boy.
*treat here means things that you like*

I will hold this memory forever. This is really a sweet memory for me as the treat is so big.

It seems to be good to recall sweet memories. I will write more next time. So that I won't forget over time.

Shower

The sky had been cloudy for few days. The predicted thunder storm is not arrived yet. Every thing is on hold. I slept for 8 hours to day, however, it is still too hard to leave my cozy bed in the morning. I just have the habit to sleep after my alarm. This is the reason that i need 3 alarm to wake me up everyday. Although I put my phone far from where I can reach. I walk to my phone this morning and walk back to my cozy bed and sleep. Once I walk out, I feel the surrounding is foggy. I won't notice it normally. I checked online when I was in work, whole Perth still remained in foggy condition although traffic hours is past. Vision in some place had reduced to few meters only. Luckily, shower will clean them all. It was still continue to shower until 6pm at my place. Make the surrounding quite humid. I pretty like it. Nothing much to write, all is silly stuff. Once saw my sister post poem, that she said she wrote herself, make me have the feeling to write poem again. Oh no, this will kill all my time.

Enjoying

9.30pm, 17 Degree Celsius. It is quite warm today. In such a weather, I feel that I'm living in paradise. Thus, enjoying it. The good news for today is that I have plenty of things to do during my internship today. The tech bay is full with computer tower. It was my first time to see such a number in the section. I was quite glad that I can learn a lot from there. Basically, this is what I can report today. Just update to let you guys know how I going. hope to hear from you guys too..